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Grimlock ♥ Inhumans

I'm a well read technosexual who's bluntly honest about all things, although I try to be most honest about myself.   

Currently reading

Batman: The Jiro Kuwata Batmanga Vol. 1
Jiro Kuwata, Jiro Kuwata
Progress: 15/352pages
The Organization of Information (Library and Information Science Text Series)
Daniel N. Joudrey, Arlene G. Taylor
Progress: 52/512pages
Reference and Information Services: An Introduction, 5th Edition (Library and Information Science Text)
Melissa A. Wong, Linda C. Smith
Progress: 17/880pages
Uncanny Avengers (2015-) #26
Sean Izaakse, R.B. Silva, Jim Zub
Information Resource Description: Creating and Managing Metadata
Philip Hider
Airplane Photography
Herbert E. Ives
Uncanny Inhumans (2015-) #0
Charles Soule, Steve McNiven
The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet
Tantor Audio, Becky Chambers, Rachel Dulude
The Late Great State of Israel: How Enemies Within and Without Threaten the Jewish Nation's Survival
Aaron Klein
Mojo: Conjure Stories
Tobias S. Buckell, Neil Gaiman, Jarla Tangh, Jenise Aminoff, Gregory Frost, Barth Anderson, Kiini Ibura Salaam, Sheree Renee Thomas, Marcia Douglas, devorah major, Nisi Shawl, Gerard Houarner, Nnedi Okorafor, Luisah Teish, Andy Duncan, Eliot Fintushel, A.M. Dellamonica, S
Progress: 64/352pages

My anxiety is spiking...

Amd if I worry about big things, I'll freak out.   Instead, per my usual MO, I'm focusing on small things like the Black Bolt #1 action figure variant which I've already asked Newburys to hold for me.   Add the wrist pain and migraine I'm working on today since they called me into a shift at work, and I'm toying with taking Wedsneday as a mental health day, using some sick pay, and basking in the glory of new comics day when they open at ten instead of at one or so.   

 

Because my dad already said if school and work is too much, I should quit and focus on school.  But what if I need time for school with sick days?

 

Because im already panicking and choking myself with guilt.  I have no problem calling in with crippling physical issues, but this is receiving that level emotionally and mentally.   I'm ready to flip off the whole world and curl up in bed until I die of not moving.   I'm about crying as I wrote this.   I want Wednesday off, and I want someone to tell me it's okay.  I try to rationalize it: you came in when they needed and once insisted you come in with a blinding migraine which left you heaving in the bathroom...

 

But I still feel guilty.   So maybe I'll take Wedsneday off and maybe not.