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allhailgrimlock

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I'm a well read technosexual who's bluntly honest about all things, although I try to be most honest about myself.   

Currently reading

Everbound
Brodi Ashton
Progress: 233/368pages
Mothering Sunday: A Romance
Graham Swift
Progress: 8/177pages
Trish out of Water Vol. 1
Studio Parlapa, Ruben Curto, Giuseppe Cafaro, Mirka Andolfo, Vince Hernandez
Progress: 39/120pages
Evil Empire Vol. 1
Max Bemis, Mike Getty, Andrea Mutti
Progress: 15/116pages
Steven Universe Vol. 2
Rebecca Sugar, Coleman Engle, Jeremy Sorese
Ninjasaur
Jason Horn
Curb Stomp
Ryan Ferrier, Devaki Neogi Kiran
Progress: 17/115pages
Transformers: Autocracy Trilogy
Livio Ramondelli, Chris Metzen, Flint Dille
Progress: 23/335pages
Transformers and Philosophy: More than Meets the Mind
Geoffrey Allan Plauché, Liz Stillwaggon Swan, John R. Shook
Progress: 12/384pages
Star-Lord (2016-2017) Annual #1
Djibril Morissette-Phan, Chip Zdarsky, Kris Anka

My anxiety is spiking...

Amd if I worry about big things, I'll freak out.   Instead, per my usual MO, I'm focusing on small things like the Black Bolt #1 action figure variant which I've already asked Newburys to hold for me.   Add the wrist pain and migraine I'm working on today since they called me into a shift at work, and I'm toying with taking Wedsneday as a mental health day, using some sick pay, and basking in the glory of new comics day when they open at ten instead of at one or so.   

 

Because my dad already said if school and work is too much, I should quit and focus on school.  But what if I need time for school with sick days?

 

Because im already panicking and choking myself with guilt.  I have no problem calling in with crippling physical issues, but this is receiving that level emotionally and mentally.   I'm ready to flip off the whole world and curl up in bed until I die of not moving.   I'm about crying as I wrote this.   I want Wednesday off, and I want someone to tell me it's okay.  I try to rationalize it: you came in when they needed and once insisted you come in with a blinding migraine which left you heaving in the bathroom...

 

But I still feel guilty.   So maybe I'll take Wedsneday off and maybe not.